Ch-ch-ch-changes!

I worked in sales. I don’t know if I ever made mention of that on this blog. I have always been very VERY careful about what I said here about my place of employment, in the off chance that they found this site. No one there knew of its existence, at least not from me, and I wanted to keep it that way. The only thing I have really mentioned is that they were letting me work from home.

That is no longer the case, and therefore, I no longer have a job. If you want more details on what happened you can shoot me a quick email. But I won’t be posting about it here. There is still too much at stake and I can’t afford to fuck up any possible reference that I might have.

Am I scared? You bet your ass I am. Am I excited to be able to stay home with Oliver for a while? YOU BET YOUR ASS I AM!! It has been almost three weeks since I lost my job and I can already see that Rocket is growing and learning in leaps and bounds since I have been able to devote my full attention to him.

We have been reading a ton of books and practicing our letters and learning about rhyming. I know he is only 6 months (ONLY SIX MONTHS!! HA!), but I can already see him trying to soak up everything I am saying. He watches my face, with such intensity, and you can see him trying to figure out how to form the words with his mouth. He has started imitating the sounds we make. It’s hilarious to hear him growl as he wrestles with his bunny. Or squeal with joy when he discovers the tags on his blanket.

He is sitting up completely unassisted and loves it. Sometimes I think he would sleep sitting up if he just wasn’t so damned tired. I love seeing him so interested in and excited about his surroundings. It’s a whole new view of his world!

The weather here has been fantastic. So we have been going on many walks, checking out the local parks, and hanging out with Jer at the golf course.

Jeremy is so excited to teach Ollie how to play golf. He has already purchased the tiniest putter you have ever seen! We talk about how cool it will be to take him to play a quick round before school starts in the morning. Hopefully he likes golf but, if not, that’s ok, too. We aren’t going to be the sort of parents the try to force their kids to like something just because we do. If Rocket wants to be a dancer, instead, that is cool with us, too!

So what am I going to do now that I am unemployed? I am finally going to start my design company. This is something that I have wanted to do my entire life. I have talked about this for as long as I can remember. And now I feel I am finally ready. I feel confidant that I can do this. I am not going to say too much about it at this point, since it is very much in the beginning stages. This is also the reason that I won’t be blogging quite as often as I had in the past. I really want to focus as much attention as I can to this. But let me just say that I am SO SO SO EXCITED!!! As soon as my website is up, I will let you all know.

And I am going to start painting again! I used to paint for hours and hours, and in the last year I haven’t painted once. I need to start using my talents. I miss feeling proud about something that I have created. Of course, Rocket, fits that description better than anything, but this is different. This is a way for me to express how I am feeling when words fail me. It’s who I am. I am an artist and I need to be confident in my abilities.

Heads up! Very exciting things are heading our way!!

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6 Responses

  1. ZOMG so much cuteness! I love those squishy cheeks!

    I think whatever’s happening work-wise is probably for the best. I loved staying home with Gabriel when he was a baby (I wish I still could, to be perfectly honest).

    I have questions about what happened with the job, if you care to answer them 🙂

  2. Ooh yes, I want the dirt!! Email me!!

    Oh, and seriously?? Stop it already with the cuteness!! Geez, I want to nom those chubby little cheeks in the worst way and it’s cruel to keep tormenting me with them when I’m too far away to actually do so.

  3. A design company? Thats fucking awesome. Good luck!

  4. Oh good, thank goodness you’ve got some pictures up and I can get my rocketoliver fix! I just get sucks into those eyes of his! 🙂
    I so want to hear the work story…duh!
    And maybe whatever happened was meant to happen because you needed more time with you adorable son and to realize a dream.
    Good luck with it all! You are very talented!

  5. You are so talented, I’m sure you’ll do very well. Enjoy your time with Rocket, it will go by in a blink.

  6. Well, you know I want the dirt, so do spill if you want to. I mean, hey, I sent you the giant zitzilla just because you asked so nicely 😉

    I think it’s great that you’re going to start your own design company, and I LOVE your artwork and your cute kid, of course. Have fun with all of it!!!

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